Long Distance Relationship...

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL OVER THE YEARS....

(one of the post I saw from FB, just feel like sharing it =)

Long Distance Relationship aren’t always ideal. In fact, they’re really tough. You spend countless of hours just talking through a phone or through a screen. You can’t see the person when you want to or when you most need them.. You can’t hug, you can’t hold hands, and you can’t kiss. You lose the intimacy in a physical sense. But then, your relationship becomes based on each other and nothing else.

You learn to communicate, because a long-distance relationship without communication is nothing.

You learn to trust, because you can’t always see or know everything the person is doing.

You learn to sacrifice, because someone’s always going to lose a bit of sleep from the time difference.

And lastly, you learn to appreciate.


So often, we take for granted the people and relationships in our lives because we think they’ll always be there.

But When you only have a limited amount of time with a person,

you learn to appreciate and cherish every single moment you have with them.

When you finally see that person after weeks or months of seeing them only through a computer screen,

It is one of the greatest feelings in the world.

When you’ve waited for something so long and you finally have it,

you cherish it. The key to a long-distance relationship is faith.

If both of you are not willing to give up,

If both of you are willing to stand up and still try after every time one of you or both of you fall.

“Distance isn’t for the fearful, it’s for the bold ".

It’s for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for the little time with the one they love.

It’s for knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don’t see it nearly enough.”

眼泪

一个人一旦受到伤害，也许就再也回不到过去了。。。

很开心，我终于找到答案了！（竟然是在《犀利人妻》这部戏里）虽然用了整整一年的时间学会忘记，但如果让我早一点看到这部戏，会不会有不一样的结局呢？

超越伤痛的唯一办法，就是原谅伤害你的人！

决定复仇需要勇气，但决定原谅却需要更大的勇气。

如果再让我选择，我并不希望一切都没发生过，反而因为发生了而感到无比的快乐！因为我懂了、领悟了，更成长了！

就此搁笔。

开花不结果

Ok, this is just another passage that I wrote. Didn't try to write a love story before. So this is my first try, but i feel it's just so lame! =.=

开花不结果

“他在上课时间偷偷溜去打篮球，结果又被纪律老师鞭了。”姐姐用那见怪不怪的眼神告诉我。

我就是喜欢他那种坏坏仔的样子。男人不坏，女人不爱嘛！别看他老是不爱读书的样子，其实他是个很独立的孩子，不但有责任感又很体贴。

他是我姐的同学。我是通过参与童军的活动才认识他的。我在学校是名巡查员，而且成绩总是名列前茅，怎么会看上他这种男生呢？所以，当时我对他的印象不怎么好，只是因为他是我姐的同学才注意到他。

由于我们须筹备童军营，刚好我和他在同一组，因此我们常留在学校讨论筹备的事。相处的时间越长，我对他有所改观，产生了好感。关系逐渐变好后，我们常结伴去看电影、吃饭和逛街。慢慢的，我们之间擦出了火花。

“当我女友吧！”一次他在短讯里这样写着。

想当时，我在学校可是风云人物，怎么可以这样随便答应人家？那我岂不是很没有脸？又考量到我们还是学生，应该以学业为重，我还是拖一拖吧。心里想，过了中五我就会考虑他的要求，但我没告诉他我的想法，认为他那么了解我一定会明白的。

他一而再地向我告白了。说真的，如果我没动摇是骗人的。

收到学校来的信。我申请到吉隆坡寄宿学校求学的信被批准了，这更说明了我中四与中五的求学生涯将在吉隆坡独自度过。我的适应力很强，胆识也非一般，又听说非巫裔的没那么容易得到此批准，所以没经过什么考量就进了那所学校。

为了减少自己对他的思念，我通常一两个星期才给他打一次电话，但每次都嘴硬说只是打爽闲聊罢了。他每次游泳训练完毕就跟朋友一起吃晚餐，接到我的电话便走到安静的地方跟我聊天，其实我都会暗爽。挂电话时还总是依依不舍。

不久后，我收到了晴天霹雳的消息。他母亲的病情恶化去世了。他从小没有父亲，如今母亲又不在了，他和兄弟姐妹只好投靠远在台湾公干的大哥。当时，我正是中五生。自己原本在心里打的算盘，现在被命运破坏了！为什么偏偏在这个时候？时差！真是时差啊！我们都盼望那么久了，这下因为隔开两地，彼此都知道我们之间不可能有后续了。

事隔多年，我对你的思念从没减少过，在部落格里写的全是你，还有一直伴着我的甜美回忆。如今，我们已经四年没见面了，谈话的内容也少得可怜。虽然你每年新年回马过年，但我们都一直安排不到时间见面。接下来的三年更不用说了。我即将到印度求学，见面的机率更是渺茫吧！

有了新生活的你，过得还好吗？有女朋友了噢！我没期待什么，也没再对你有任何的牵挂，至少我们还是朋友。在远方的你，我真心祝福你！

小风景

Since I am having semester break and so free now, so CHIANG CHIANG! This is my first writing in Chinese language (in the blog only). Thinking to 投稿 to earn some money if possible. *think too much xD

小风景

兜兜转转了一圈，到了这个年龄的我才深深地领悟到“前脚走，后脚放”的道理。曾经有人告诉过我这个的道理，但那时的我觉得自己明白了，现在才知道其实并没有。

有些时候，我们会因为做了一些决定但又一直在抉择。当遇到一些问题或有些不愉快时，自己一味的觉得假如当初没做这个决定，可能会过得更好。人嘛！总会有不知足的时候。看见别人过得好就会情不自禁地去羡慕他人。想到这里，我会心一笑。

想当初，进了这所大学，过着自己向往的生活。但因为自己有更高的要求，想报读更好的课系，所以便转校了。来到这间学院，发现虽然可以达到自己的梦想，但是生活怎么也不比之前的好。之前，我可以参加自己最拿手的比赛，加入自己最喜欢的活动。如今，因为我报读的是医科，所以没得选择，只有拼了命地读书，要不然很容易就会被淘汰了。看见朋友接二连三地参加我梦寐以求的比赛，自己在一旁难过了。我曾经拥有的机会，现在因自己的另一个梦想，被必要放弃摆在眼前的希望。

这个想法埋藏在心里很久。最终到了假期，我带着很兴奋的心情到了我之前的大学，想看看我那久违的生活。果然，很多时候我们表面上看到的并不是他真正的样貌。打个比方，一颗苹果看上去是多么的完美无缺，谁也没想到把它转向后面的时候，呈现的是一个污点，似跌过在地上，永远都无法把它擦掉。生活也正就是这个样子。我看见很多的朋友因为参与太多的活动而荒废了学业。曾经他们为自己的成绩而奋斗，如今因为要获取课外活动的分数而把精力都花在别的地方，因此成绩更是每况日下。看见他们的这种生活，我突然因为转校了而感到无比的开心，至少我可以全神贯注地读书及温习功课。

终于，我看开了！人总要往前看。时间一旦消失了，永远再也回不去。每个人都有他们自己要过的生活，没有人会因为你而停下脚步。随着时间的流逝，通常剩下的也只有零零碎碎的回忆。俗语说得好！能舍，才能得。放下吧！人们来到这世上，每天毫无选择的只有迈向死亡更近一步。所以，没时间再回头了。

有位文学家曾经说过，有的人看见别人的路好走，就想去走别人的路；看见别人走的路近，就想去抄别人的近路，放弃自己的路不走而去挤别人的路。但很抱歉地说，我这个人做事就要跟别人截然不同，有着自己的想法，怎样也要走出自己的那一条康庄大道，活出自己！慕然回首，这纯粹是我个人的小风景。每条道路都有自己的风景。不管我选择了哪条道路，抉择最后怎么样，我所遇到的风景都是我自己的选择，所以我都会好好欣赏那条路的风景。因此，我悟出了一个道理。即使你现在正经历着困难，也要勇往直前。只要怀有梦想，必定能实现。人有过艰难，有过温暖，才是最幸福的。

The end =D

Dear YOU...

I miss you like HELL but you'll never know. This is the 2nd post about you. It has been a very very long time since I last saw you. They said that you have become a bit fat and chubby. I am really glad for that. That means you have lead a good life there. I really miss you so much. Really. Although so many years have passed, but I will never forget everything about you. I know you will never read this blog again, that's why I feel so free to type it out here :)

I still remember the last day before you went to Taiwan, I called you from school. You told me if can after studying Form 5, you hope that I can come and study in Taiwan. I was so childish that time to tell you that I hate Taiwan, don't like the life there and I never want to go there to study. The main reason was because I was so sad of your leaving. And yea, everything was over and the only thing left was MEMORY. Thanks for all the memories you have given to me. I promise not to "put your aeroplane" (like what you always like to say) if I were given the chance to see you again.

Take care, dear Ah Pek. You'll be deeply missed.

THIS way, THAT way...

Another wonderful midnight!! I love midnight so much. Don't know why. Maybe this is the only time which I can settle myself down and do whatever I like. I like to enjoy the moment of myself and live in my own world without having anyone to disturb in the midnight. It is probably because I got to face the reality world with all the challenges and real races among people the moment I open my eyes the next morning. Got to wake up early to start the daily routine til night without having the ability to follow the choices of my heart. For example, fishermen got to go fishing in the sea although it rains because they have to earn a living of their own; students got to study hard to pass the examinations although they don't like it because it is the only pathway to lead them to their ambitions; the prime minister got to crack his head to think of the best way to take care about his nations although he seldom has his own time because it is his responsibility...yea...RESPONSIBILITY!! Its the only answer. From the moment we are brought to this world, each and everyone of us has our own burden. So that's the reasons we are here...to accomplish our dreams...and the wishes of our loved ones~

I just don't understand myself for crapping so much here. Probably it's the time to slow down my pace to listen to myself and the others. I have been thinking a lot these few days, since the day I got my results until now...So here I am standing at the crossroad. It's the exact time to decide which path to choose, to carry out life and bring it to the next level. "A super shit result!" I laugh to myself. But I never regret for what I got. At least I have put my effort in it. So let's just accept it open-heartedly and take this as a lesson to encourage myself to do better next time. Past several months of struggle to climb the ladder of life leaves me at times falling, still I know I must eventually pick myself up because there is no one else who would come in my pathway and give me a helping hand except for myself. After all, SPM is just a pass which will bring us towards the bridge that lead to our dreams. The more important question now is WHAT AM I GOING TO PURSUE AFTER THIS???

To be truthful, I always wanted to be a doctor since I was young. But as time passed, I think that I want to be something more special. A SURGEON perhaps?? But I'll need a super high qualifications. I have been wondering around what to study. Foundation? A-level? Form 6? That's why I keeps applying for scholarships and courses which take up quite a lot of my time. Want to know the conclusion of that? I applied for stupid things that I don't like such as accounting and engineering. I just don't know what's the point that I am doing that. Even if I get the scholarship, I won't accept it as I really don't like all those courses. But there's not much scholarships which are available for medical course.T.T End up my mum told me its okay, no need to think too much, just go for the offer I got from UPM. It's just only a foundation. After studying that only I can choose the courses I want in UPM. The most important thing is there's medical course in UPM!!! Of course I got to get super good pointer for foundation only I can get that course. People (including counselors) keep asking me what's my 2nd and 3rd choices. But I really don't have even until now. I know it's very dangerous to be like that. Medical course is the only course I want to pursue! No others~

Now you can already imagine what's the following questions people like to ask. WHY DO YOU WANT TO BECOME A DOCTOR? CAN YOU stand the pressure...spend so many years to study that course...bla...bla...bla...?? But only me myself know the answer. I LOVE PRESSURE. I love to do things under pressure (although it is suffering) but I still enjoy the feeling. I LOVE TO DO THINGS THAT OTHERS DON'T LIKE because I like to be special. I LOVE blood because it's the thing that other people are afraid of. Blood can also make people nervous, frightened and scare. This is amazing man! I LOVE helping people. I LOVE to do works without having the time limit even it's from morning until night. That's why I usually don't like to sleep when I start doing my work. I won't eat and sleep as long as I haven't complete my works (I know this is terribly bad...but I will try to throw away this bad habits). Doctors usually have to answer emergency calls. This is challenging man! I LOVE being busy!!(Crazy fella) I don't like jobs that just sitting in the office and enjoying the air conditioner. It's like SIENZZZ...

*p/s: Whichever road you decide to take there is no right or wrong unless you design your destiny to fit its pattern accordingly to suit your needs and wants. And I strongly believe that
"It is the Weak that Falls, yet the Strong shall Rise!” =DDD

NATIONAL SERVICE

"KHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA"

Really can't believe that my last post was on December last year. As this is the first post on 2012, so let's just start with my new year resolution (although it seems so late for now). But frankly speaking, I haven't thought of any new year resolution because there isn't much time to let me settle down things in 2011 and prepare for 2012.

"Malaysia Boleh!!" Feeling familiar? On 1/1/2012, its the first day I went to PLKN. This is the programme that I have been waited for so long as I love camping so much. But the beginning of those few days really seems like gonna take my life. BOREDOM is the only word that can describe that feeling. What we did in the camp was eating and sleeping. Seriously, that was the only activities. To people who are overactive or can't sit still like me, it was really suffering and torturing. What I did whole day in the camp was READING..READING..n READING..Know what that others told me?? "Hey, you have just finished SPM. Don't need to show your hardworking-ness!" IDIOT is the most suitable word that I can use to describe them (oh, I am just so bad). I love reading, so what? One day seems like one year....Luckily the next day Pavi registered herself to the camp. Oh! This is really the gift from god that I got a friend here and so we chatted to our hearts' content in my dorm.

Actually I was so excited to come to the camp and just took a few minutes the night before to pack my things as there wasn't that much things to bring. But the activities in the camp made me DISAPPOINT a bit because most of the activities I have already done before in other camp. It was not that challenging as what I had expected. On the contrary, I think the KRS & NGO camp that I attended before in Melacca was the best one. But one thing that attracted me the most or by other means caught my heart the most was the friendliness showed by the trainers. Although sometimes they would also scold us for our misbehaved, they treated us like their own children and siblings. I love all the trainers so much and I treated them like my own family members too. Even though some of them like to play pranks and joke with me, that was what that made the moments in PLKN precious. I really miss them and luckily we are still keeping contact. On the other hand, meeting friends in PLKN was the happiest things in life. I love making new friends and there it goes. I knew lots of friends (especially friends of different races) that I won't forget them in my life. We went through thick and thin although we just manage to spend 3 months together. Therefore, I would like to thank all of them who made my life wonderful. Without them, I wouldn't be the ME now who are having so many friends to care about me. To sum up, that was really a SUPERB, FABULOUS N' AWESOME memories~~~<3