Dear YOU...

I miss you like HELL but you'll never know. This is the 2nd post about you. It has been a very very long time since I last saw you. They said that you have become a bit fat and chubby. I am really glad for that. That means you have lead a good life there. I really miss you so much. Really. Although so many years have passed, but I will never forget everything about you. I know you will never read this blog again, that's why I feel so free to type it out here :)

I still remember the last day before you went to Taiwan, I called you from school. You told me if can after studying Form 5, you hope that I can come and study in Taiwan. I was so childish that time to tell you that I hate Taiwan, don't like the life there and I never want to go there to study. The main reason was because I was so sad of your leaving. And yea, everything was over and the only thing left was MEMORY. Thanks for all the memories you have given to me. I promise not to "put your aeroplane" (like what you always like to say) if I were given the chance to see you again.

Take care, dear Ah Pek. You'll be deeply missed.

THIS way, THAT way...

Another wonderful midnight!! I love midnight so much. Don't know why. Maybe this is the only time which I can settle myself down and do whatever I like. I like to enjoy the moment of myself and live in my own world without having anyone to disturb in the midnight. It is probably because I got to face the reality world with all the challenges and real races among people the moment I open my eyes the next morning. Got to wake up early to start the daily routine til night without having the ability to follow the choices of my heart. For example, fishermen got to go fishing in the sea although it rains because they have to earn a living of their own; students got to study hard to pass the examinations although they don't like it because it is the only pathway to lead them to their ambitions; the prime minister got to crack his head to think of the best way to take care about his nations although he seldom has his own time because it is his responsibility...yea...RESPONSIBILITY!! Its the only answer. From the moment we are brought to this world, each and everyone of us has our own burden. So that's the reasons we are here...to accomplish our dreams...and the wishes of our loved ones~

I just don't understand myself for crapping so much here. Probably it's the time to slow down my pace to listen to myself and the others. I have been thinking a lot these few days, since the day I got my results until now...So here I am standing at the crossroad. It's the exact time to decide which path to choose, to carry out life and bring it to the next level. "A super shit result!" I laugh to myself. But I never regret for what I got. At least I have put my effort in it. So let's just accept it open-heartedly and take this as a lesson to encourage myself to do better next time. Past several months of struggle to climb the ladder of life leaves me at times falling, still I know I must eventually pick myself up because there is no one else who would come in my pathway and give me a helping hand except for myself. After all, SPM is just a pass which will bring us towards the bridge that lead to our dreams. The more important question now is WHAT AM I GOING TO PURSUE AFTER THIS???

To be truthful, I always wanted to be a doctor since I was young. But as time passed, I think that I want to be something more special. A SURGEON perhaps?? But I'll need a super high qualifications. I have been wondering around what to study. Foundation? A-level? Form 6? That's why I keeps applying for scholarships and courses which take up quite a lot of my time. Want to know the conclusion of that? I applied for stupid things that I don't like such as accounting and engineering. I just don't know what's the point that I am doing that. Even if I get the scholarship, I won't accept it as I really don't like all those courses. But there's not much scholarships which are available for medical course.T.T End up my mum told me its okay, no need to think too much, just go for the offer I got from UPM. It's just only a foundation. After studying that only I can choose the courses I want in UPM. The most important thing is there's medical course in UPM!!! Of course I got to get super good pointer for foundation only I can get that course. People (including counselors) keep asking me what's my 2nd and 3rd choices. But I really don't have even until now. I know it's very dangerous to be like that. Medical course is the only course I want to pursue! No others~

Now you can already imagine what's the following questions people like to ask. WHY DO YOU WANT TO BECOME A DOCTOR? CAN YOU stand the pressure...spend so many years to study that course...bla...bla...bla...?? But only me myself know the answer. I LOVE PRESSURE. I love to do things under pressure (although it is suffering) but I still enjoy the feeling. I LOVE TO DO THINGS THAT OTHERS DON'T LIKE because I like to be special. I LOVE blood because it's the thing that other people are afraid of. Blood can also make people nervous, frightened and scare. This is amazing man! I LOVE helping people. I LOVE to do works without having the time limit even it's from morning until night. That's why I usually don't like to sleep when I start doing my work. I won't eat and sleep as long as I haven't complete my works (I know this is terribly bad...but I will try to throw away this bad habits). Doctors usually have to answer emergency calls. This is challenging man! I LOVE being busy!!(Crazy fella) I don't like jobs that just sitting in the office and enjoying the air conditioner. It's like SIENZZZ...

*p/s: Whichever road you decide to take there is no right or wrong unless you design your destiny to fit its pattern accordingly to suit your needs and wants. And I strongly believe that
"It is the Weak that Falls, yet the Strong shall Rise!” =DDD

NATIONAL SERVICE

"KHIDMAT UNTUK NEGARA"

Really can't believe that my last post was on December last year. As this is the first post on 2012, so let's just start with my new year resolution (although it seems so late for now). But frankly speaking, I haven't thought of any new year resolution because there isn't much time to let me settle down things in 2011 and prepare for 2012.

"Malaysia Boleh!!" Feeling familiar? On 1/1/2012, its the first day I went to PLKN. This is the programme that I have been waited for so long as I love camping so much. But the beginning of those few days really seems like gonna take my life. BOREDOM is the only word that can describe that feeling. What we did in the camp was eating and sleeping. Seriously, that was the only activities. To people who are overactive or can't sit still like me, it was really suffering and torturing. What I did whole day in the camp was READING..READING..n READING..Know what that others told me?? "Hey, you have just finished SPM. Don't need to show your hardworking-ness!" IDIOT is the most suitable word that I can use to describe them (oh, I am just so bad). I love reading, so what? One day seems like one year....Luckily the next day Pavi registered herself to the camp. Oh! This is really the gift from god that I got a friend here and so we chatted to our hearts' content in my dorm.

Actually I was so excited to come to the camp and just took a few minutes the night before to pack my things as there wasn't that much things to bring. But the activities in the camp made me DISAPPOINT a bit because most of the activities I have already done before in other camp. It was not that challenging as what I had expected. On the contrary, I think the KRS & NGO camp that I attended before in Melacca was the best one. But one thing that attracted me the most or by other means caught my heart the most was the friendliness showed by the trainers. Although sometimes they would also scold us for our misbehaved, they treated us like their own children and siblings. I love all the trainers so much and I treated them like my own family members too. Even though some of them like to play pranks and joke with me, that was what that made the moments in PLKN precious. I really miss them and luckily we are still keeping contact. On the other hand, meeting friends in PLKN was the happiest things in life. I love making new friends and there it goes. I knew lots of friends (especially friends of different races) that I won't forget them in my life. We went through thick and thin although we just manage to spend 3 months together. Therefore, I would like to thank all of them who made my life wonderful. Without them, I wouldn't be the ME now who are having so many friends to care about me. To sum up, that was really a SUPERB, FABULOUS N' AWESOME memories~~~<3

The Beginning of Christmas!!

It's Christmas!!

Yeah! I have just finished watching a Korean drama--No Limit. It was kind of great drama I guess. Know what's the time now? It's 4:18am, but yea its Christmas!! Everyone at home is sleeping, leaving me the only one who stay awake. So what's next? I am going for a jog with my family members when the rays of morning sun begins to break through the thick envelope of mist in a few hours from now. But it is drizzling outside now and I am not sure whether I can get up early the next morning. Later on, we are heading to Melacca to watch a performance by the Tzu Chi members. Guess it might be a great one! Haiz...my friends are asking me out tomorrow for a movie. It feels so sad that I can't make it again. But I got no choice and I am so sorry. Perhaps next time???? JINGLE BELL, JINGLE BELL, JINGLE ALL THE WAY~~~

如果，有一天

"有一天，你走进我心里，你会哭，因为那里全是你。

如果，有一天，我走进你心里，我也会哭，因为那里没有我。"

This is what one of my friend type. I feel that it's very meaningful so i prefer to share it here. I am just wondering that why so many people are bothered with LOVE now. I realize that LOVE can be very powerful, but sometimes it will make people suffer. So to be safe, better never ever get involved in such complicated relationship until we are mature enough and until the right time. I am listening to song when i type this. But guess what? The song played was entitled "手放开" by Sam Lee. Hmm...maybe this is the greatest advice among all =)

Just Breathe...

Why am I having so bad luck now?? Just now I just went for undang test. Guess what? I got 41/50 and the passing marks is 42. T.T But what to do? I always like to do things last minute. I just read the undang book last night around 9 or 10 o'clock. So obviously this is the punishment for always do things last minute. Haiz. 5 minutes before I have just received a call from Pn. Elizabeth, my girl guide teacher. She wants me to go back to the girl guide building to help the juniors out. They are taking BAKP test now. So most probably they need our help and i can't even contact Ru Yen. Now, Miss Jeya is waiting for our calls. =( One more thing is I need to go to the post office and post laju (a very urgent thing), but my mum is not around to send me there. So how?????? Finger crossing that very thing will be fine. Later having guitar class and my friends are coming to my house. I haven't even clean up the mess in my house yet. Haha...

那些年我们一起追的女孩

THE SCENE I LIKE THE MOST~~

I have just finished watching "那些年我们一起追的女孩"!! A really great movie but yet it makes people feel that pain in the heart. I admit that I am really, really childish to think that the prince and princess would get along and have a wonderful life ever after. But this movie really let me realise that there is something more meaningful and great about LOVE, that is letting go the person you like as long as the person gets his/her happiness. It's not an as-easy-as-ABC-things, but is something called sacrifice which will only made by someone who understand love. But I just don't understand why the girl never confess her feelings towards the guy as she likes him so much...To sum up, this is a marvelous movie I should say as it is more down to earth to teenagers like us. Frankly speaking, when I was watching this movie, it really made me thought about the wonderful childhood and teenager life I had with my friends. As we are almost reaching the end of secondary student's life (SPM still going on...xD) and going to start off the new journey of our very own, I will cherish all those memories I had because 我要成为一个很厉害的人，让这个世界因为有了我而有一点点的不一样！！！

A LOVELY SONG~~<3