Isn't That Good Enough???

Arghh...This is totally driving me crazy...why is this world becoming more and more competitive?? This really causes a lot of students like us having so much of pressures...all these pressures seriously will bring us to death!! Just look at Form 5 students that just graduated...like one of my friend...he got straight A's...STRAIGHT A'S!! and 8 A+...maybe it would be just a so-called 'kacang putih' for all those genius...but for ordinary people like us it is a really excellent result...a lot of efforts and sacrifices have been made to achieve that goal...their parents have just spent a lot of money sending them to tuition classes and courses...they just want their children to be as good as other children...I seriously don't know what to do if I am that one who is facing this problems...perhaps I will go mad...anyway i hope that my friend will recover soon and walk out from his sadness...only he himself can help himself...there is no other ways...it is also a very sad news to me because that friend of mine is a very good friend for me...he always give me advises whenever i face any problems...so for what had happened to him...i really feel pity for him...so what can I do is advise him and wish him all the best...after all it is just an obstacle in our journey of life...just take it as something that will guide us to become a better and stronger person...
"When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it is not reasonable to grieve when it comes to the end. There is always a rainbow after the heavy rain. So face this world with a SMILE."

Harapan Tanpa Suara- Kempen Kami Prihatin

Dear friends...the world today are having serious problems...there are a lot of cases of babies been abandoned...so care for the society!!!! Support this video clip~~hehe...
Here are the lyrics...that have been written in only 1 day...and this song is produced within 1 week...so sit back n relax...and don't forget to take action!!!

Di dalam kandungan ibuku tersayang
Amannya kurasakan
Degupan jantungmu, jantungku
Irama penuh syahdu
Kuingin rasai kehangatan pelukan
Belaian kasih sayang
Ku jaga kau di hari tuamu
Andai panjang usiaku
Namun hanya harapan tanpa suara
Di dunia hanya seketika
Jasad kaku dibalut kertas usang
Terbiar bagai sampah terbuang
Dimanakah ibu dimanakah ayah
Bonekakah atau manusia
Anak tidak berdosa menjadi mangsa
Oleh hawa nafsu yang serakah

p/s: Talian Nur 15999

Always thought that myself is tough...but i realize that the fact is opposite...scare to face everything that i am facing now...homeworks, BSS, school...and now i even scare of time...the faster the time past, the harder i am gasping for air...and now the time has come...time for me to go back again...TT so sad...but my mum is not at home leh...i dont know how to leave without seeing her face...
haiz...i don;t know why i am always like that...everytime i am sad sure will think of all this nonsense...all stupid negative things...oops..suddely got the feel to write a poem...hehe...gotta 'chao' now...but still wondering whether want to go back to school...

Hardtime

Dunno why everytime when i feel bad i will surely type my feeling here...I found that it is really a good way to express my feeling...walau...haven't start to type the main point already cry until very teruk...haha...sometimes feel that myself is quite stupid...havent finish doing homeworks can waste time crying...and suka cari pasal menangis...no la...it's because i have to leave home tomorrow...not even reach 24 hours...haiz...now thinking of tomorrow's hardtime, i can really feel the fear that running down my spine...my heart pumping extremely fast...dunno why i feel so scare...maybe because i have to leave my sweet, sweet home...missing everything here...friends, family...even my pillow, booster and bed...xD...even the toilet, bathroom, kitchen, dining room, living room and every corner in my house...

i went to prefect camp that day...the moment that will stay in my heart forever was when i looked up at the sky...a board board sky where is no limit...with the company of so many shiny and sparkling stars, the sky seems to be the most beautiful thing in this world...at the moment, i was sitting beside Wei Theng...only both of us...sitting on the road...maybe you'll think we were crazy...because it was 12 something...and others had already went back to their A-hut to sleep...but it was the first time i looked at the sky at night for so long...it made me think of something...............

why is there no perfect things in this world? why can we only get ONE thing at a time but not both or many? why is God always give you something but always take something back from you? WHY??? i really don't understand...why do i have to leave home so early compare to the others? why can't i have family and friends by my side while mengejar-ing impian?? seriously...this feeling is really torturing...so to the rest of you out there...cherish what you have now...especially the moment with your love ones...studying in this school really don't have any freedom...no tv no pc...actually got la...but can't use anytime you want...and somemore don't have time and a space for you to cry...actually if look from the surface, i have a lot of friends here...but deep in my heart is really really very lonely...but a found a very good friend here...love her so much...and she knows quite a lot of things about Tzu-Chi...so glad...at least i can feel that at least there is someone from the same 'kampung' as i...haha...but what to do...life is like that...full or obstacles...once you can face it and solve the difficulties only you are counted as a successful person...luckily 'chicken' chats with me...although it's only a short conversation...if not i dunno will cry until what time...hahaha...but stupid him...keeps saying icicic only...==...

k la...really waste a lot of time already...hope i will be stronger and tougher...till we meet in blog again...><...sayonara=)

The Sound of My Heart

It's christmas today! Hmmm...actually I told myself not to post anything today...but my heart keeps paining from the moment i got my results till now...although I got quite a good result...but I don't even know the reasons why I am feeling like that...don't know whether I should laugh or cry...while listening to some kind of slow songs...make me feel even bad...but I think I will feel better after i write it down here...Does a good result really mean so much to me? I am confused...Don't I study from Form 1 til now is only for PMR? Now the result is in my hand...although it shows straight A's...but I don't feel happy at all...what does all this mean? I can still remember the night before I collect my result...a few words to describe...scare...nervous...anxious...but at last I could sleep well also...Now I think I can get a conclusion...YOU WILL ONLY BE HAPPY WHEN YOU DID SOMETHING WHOLE-HEARTEDLY...know the reasons why I said so? Because I didn't put much effort on my exams...I didn't try my best to face the exams...but I know I have to satisfied what I have now...
So what i want to say is 'Thank You' to my beloved parents...although they always busy with their works...but at least they cared about me...they wished me good luck before I went to the school and started a war...this is more than enough for me^^ Especially my mum...sorry for being so unfilial...sorry for making her worried for my exams...you know what...I scare that I will get a bad result as I never study hard...so I keep reminding her not to have high expectation...I think she must be very sad at the moment as for this whole year, she has sacrificed a lot of her times for sending me to tuition center...spent a lot of money on my education fees and even she knew that my body is quite weak...so she spent lots of her times to bring me to the doctor and bought some enzymes or medicine to make my body healthier...and there is something more important!! My mum has high blood pressure...so that morning before I go to school and collect my result...my mum said she felt a bit numb on her left arm...and so she checked the pressure herself(we have a machine for checking pressure)...wow her pressure went up until 145...then she was very nervous and of course if you were in that condition...you will be terribly scare...I don't know what to do...the only thing that i could do is prayed to the God...I told the God to bless my mum...You can cut down a few A's...I don't need those A's...I just want my mum to be healthy!!! Without wasting anytime, my mum called me to do some massage on her arm and called my younger sister to pack some shirts in case she need to stay in the hospital...at last my father sent her to the Columbia Hospital...you know what the doctor told my mum? "There is nothing that you need to worry about. Just relax and go for a holiday with your husband." but my mum still hesitating...she wanted the doctor to do medical check-up for her...but the doctor said no need...my mum just need to rest more...that's all...puffff...we finally can put down the big stone on our heart...haha...we sighed with relief...with light-heartedly, my father drove us toward my school...aww...can I skip that part?? I am very lazy to type so much of things la...some more my stomach is very hungry now...so my fingers have no more energy to move over the keyboard...hehe....my mum told me that one of the reasons she was feeling so was because of my results...she couldn't sleep well the day before...
Besides that, I also have to thank my teachers for being so caring and put their hearts and soul into us...if they are not there, I won't be getting such a good results...maybe you will feel that it is so lame, but to me...I feel very grateful...and to all my friends( Chai Bao, Kai Qin, Ru Yen, Siau Ying, Ah Loh, Ah Miow, Win Fatt, Yi Zhang, Yee Seng, Andrew, Yoke Yee, Cheet Qing) oh too many to write...thanks for being there always...whenever I don't understand something, you all will volunteer to teach me...I will keep that in my heart whenever I go..Last but not least...to my family...my sisters, brother and aunt...thanks for giving me support and advice...thanks for waking me up whenever I don't want to...thanks for using so much ways like kicking me or whatever to prevent me not to sleep again...(although after I woke up you will surely get scolding from me)...
Wow...after a long long speech...until my saliva is completely dried...I really appreciate for what you have done for me...this is what we called LOVE...AN INVISIBLE LOVE~


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A Farewell to 2009

Tomorrow, tomorrow and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,

To the last syllable of recorded time,

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools...(and so on)

Do life really as slow as what William Shakespeare meant in "Life Brief Candle"? I don't think so. Life passes as swiftly as lighting...so we have to cherish what we have now and do something that is meaningful...

2009 is going to end...What have I done in this whole long year? Well, I don't really know...okay, lets don't continue that...it makes my mind fly to somewhere else and keeps staring at the screen of the computer =p...Due to chinese custom, as it is the end of year 2009 we have to celebrate "Dong Zhi"...which means we have to make some kind of small balls call "tang yuan"...hehe...and what is so special about the balls is after you eat the small balls, you will grow one year older...does it surprise you?? I think everyone in this world wish they will live-ever-long(chang-shen-bu-lao)...so make sure you don't eat the ball ball la...wakaka...I wish I would become Peter Pan and live in Neverland...so I won't be old...if my dream really come true, I will bring my whole family and all my friends there(hey make sure you guys wait for me yea)...what a silly dream xD...

Go back to our title about Dong Zhi, let me post some photos to let you see...

First of all, we have to make"doh"...erm...this is the three colours of doh that my aunt made...oh yea...still left white colour doh...I took it away...haha...let me tell you where was the colour of the doh came from...

White: original...of course that is the colour of the flour

Green: pandan

Pink: (pewarna...don't know what it called in english)

Blue: the colour of one kind of blue-purplish flowers

This is the photos of my family making tang yuan...even my small little brother also helping...

This was the tang yuan made by my brother..the whole plate is made by him...I think he is the one who made the most tang yuan...really great!! proud of him xD...I don't think any of a small boy whose age only 6 can do such a great job like what my brother did...

"Deng! Deng! Deng! Deng!"...Proud to say that this was the tang yuan made by my family members...so colourful and nice huh??!! xD...Hope that all of us and the readers out there will have a bless 'dong zhi'...

Exploration in Gunung Angsi

*Senyuman manis dan berpuas hati yang tidak terhingga terpancar di muka setiap orang setelah berpenat-lelah mendaki gunung yang begitu tinggi...CHEERS!!!

yoyo...finally i got a chance to climb mountain with my friends and family...i remembered the last time that i went for mountain climbing was last year during Girl Guide's camp in Kuala Kangsar...it was so fun...before we went into the mountain, I heard that some of my friends that have been into the mountain said there were a lot of leeches...yeah! I love leeches...I hope that I will get a bite by them...but after that, one of my friends came back from the mountain climbing and she got bitten by the leeches...i can see the blood keeps coming out from the hole that the leeches bit...ewww...it was so disgusting...but anyway I like it! hehe...She told me that it was a bit painful so at last I decided not to take the risk...I think everyone will scare of pain, don't you?? Therefore, I have done a lot of preparation before I went into the mountain...I heard somebody said that if you apply some shampoo or any soap on your foot, the leeches won't bite you...after thinking for a long while, I decided to try...and my friends keep spraying some mosquito repellent on my body from the top to the bottom...at last i got the smell of the herbal all over my body@.@

Here come the chance to explore the mountain again...but it is not the same mountain...this mountain is called Gunung Angsi...it is located in Kuala Pilah i guess...on that day, I woke up 4 o'clock in the morning to prepare some breakfast--egg sandwiches(it makes me mouth-watering again)...aiks...i forgot to take the photos of cornflakes ball made by our big chef--Zuo Nian Ah Pek...although all the food that we prepared was'nt really very nice...hehe...but we ate to our hearts' content...haiz...actually we have to gathered at 6.30am...but some of the lazy pig(better don't mention their name)only woke up at that time...so we started our journey at 7 something...

Here are some photos that we took that day ;D

Hehe...Love this photo so much...but our cameraman and some of the others who went too far in front was not in this photo *sigh...

You know what...actually we were too tired and need to rest only took this photo...haha...everyone was so fake...xD

Going down the slippery slope as it rained the day before we went for mountain climbing...See!! We were holding each other's hand to ensure everyone of us was in a safe condition...Nice shot!!!

Our cute little MPS...hahaha...my brother, Ah Dong went up the mountain while sweeping the dried leaves which spattered all over the ground...

Oops...its a waste that we didn't take any video*shaking head*...Through this activity, the distance between everyone of us become closer...hope that the friendship among us will as strong as anything else in the world...*Laugh out loud*...Before I end, I really have to thanks everyone of us that get round valuable time to attend for this mountain climbing...If time permits, I hope that we can go out again!!! Happy moments always pass away so quickly that we don't really realize...Looking forward for next gathering...
LOVE YOU GUYS!!! muakzz...